Each day of our IVF cycle, I've found myself asking one important question every morning - is this a waterproof mascara day?
What do I mean?
Well, each morning I have assessed, and continue to assess, everything that the day may hold - what news was I expecting from the RE that day and what tests were being done - and then determined the probability of me crying. Then I selected my mascara accordingly.
Now, I hate waterproof mascara because it is so darn difficult to get off in the evening. But it is better than looking like a raccoon that day.
So my next waterproof or not decision will be this Wednesday when we have what should be our last ultrasound at the RE. I am so scared that a heartbeat won't be detected or the baby won't be growing or....all those other terrible possibilities.
My fear is only compounded because I absolutely, positively do not feel pregnant. No nausea. No exhaustion. Nothing. Boobs are a little sore, but that can also be attributed to the 3-a-day-suppository habit I have. I have a twinge or two, but nothing else. I've Googled it 100 times and found about a million other people freaking out about not having symptoms, so at least I know I'm in good company.
So, anyways, I'm thinking Wednesday will be a waterproof mascara kind of day.
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Best of luck on Wednesday! I can't even imagine how nervous you are. Just want you to know I'm thinking of you and praying that everything looks A-OK with your little cashew. :-D
ReplyDeleteKeeping my fingers crossed for Wednesday. Grow, cashew, grow!
ReplyDeleteI will keep everything crossed for you. I only recently discovered your blog and have really enjoyed reading. For your candidness and honesty, you have an award on my blog.
ReplyDeleteOh, I totally understand how you are feeling. I so feel the same way. I already told my husband that Friday will be a waterproof mascara day (for our u/s). I hope the tears both of us have are happy ones!
ReplyDeleteWaterproof mascara huh? I'll have to bust mine out as well! Mine stays on for like days though...and I wash my face twice a day!
ReplyDeletePraying everything will turn out just fine and that heartbeat will be strong!!!
I'm praying for you every day and I so hope you have tears of joy on Wednesday!
ReplyDeleteP.S. My SIL was just telling us yesterday how she had no pregnancy symptoms at all until she was much further along. I'm sure everything is just fine with you and your little cashew!
Congratulations and good luck for the u/s! Thanks for your support in my journey... you have an award waiting at my blog!
ReplyDeleteDon't worry, I had no symptoms until around 8 weeks. And now I'm wondering why I wished for symptoms because at almost 14 weeks I'm still throwing up! Oh well. I had convinced myself I wasn't pregnant either so I'm sure everything will be fine. Good luck!
ReplyDeleteDon't stress too much about the no symptoms......I am almost 15 weeks pregnant and I haven't had an ounce of sickness, exhaustion, etc. Hopefully you will be in the same boat!! People always tell me to count my blessing for feeling so great but I understand why you are worried....because I was too!! Keep your head up! Praying you are one of the lucky ones who doesn't get sick during pregnancy!! :)
ReplyDeleteNot a single pregnancy symptom and I had TWINS!
ReplyDeleteYay for Wednesday! Enjoy the no symptoms (I've been barfing since our 1st BFP blood test almost 8 months ago!!!) and I'm sure everything will be great for your last RE visit!
ReplyDeleteWaterproof mascara is nice, but I wish they would come out with something for big red puffy eyes (after a good cry).
ReplyDeleteGood luck with the appointment tomorrow!
Praying for you! Hope you only have happy tears.
ReplyDeleteI hope everything went well at the u/s- I've been waiting to hear news! :)
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I was the same, no syptoms except sore boobs. Your anxiety will go down once you can feel movement, it won't eliminate it, but it will help.
ReplyDeleteCan't wait to hear how the ultrasound went. :-D
ReplyDeleteEvery day is a waterproof mascara day for me, simply for the fact that non-waterproof wears off and is gone at the end of the day.
ReplyDeleteCongratulations on your pregnancy!
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