Each day of our IVF cycle, I've found myself asking one important question every morning - is this a waterproof mascara day?
What do I mean?
Well, each morning I have assessed, and continue to assess, everything that the day may hold - what news was I expecting from the RE that day and what tests were being done - and then determined the probability of me crying. Then I selected my mascara accordingly.
Now, I hate waterproof mascara because it is so darn difficult to get off in the evening. But it is better than looking like a raccoon that day.
So my next waterproof or not decision will be this Wednesday when we have what should be our last ultrasound at the RE. I am so scared that a heartbeat won't be detected or the baby won't be growing or....all those other terrible possibilities.
My fear is only compounded because I absolutely, positively do not feel pregnant. No nausea. No exhaustion. Nothing. Boobs are a little sore, but that can also be attributed to the 3-a-day-suppository habit I have. I have a twinge or two, but nothing else. I've Googled it 100 times and found about a million other people freaking out about not having symptoms, so at least I know I'm in good company.
So, anyways, I'm thinking Wednesday will be a waterproof mascara kind of day.